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Friday 24 February 2012

14 years have passed...

The day has always been sad and will forever be. I lost everything, but still I have survived. Every year has thought me something new. And the bond is still as strong as before, it's difficult for me to realize the fact. The things I have shared with you will always be the memory of my past.


I know he's watching me from up there,  I'm proud of myself. And even he might be. My love for him has become more and more stronger. Even after a decade he might have been still the same.

I wish that 
I get the privilege to be his son in the next generation too. May your soul R.I.P. 







- I love you Daddy. 

Saturday 11 February 2012

The Day when a 'NOBODY' cared..

I was low on self-confidence, no self belief. I was very much depressed. I don't know why suddenly I was becoming nostalgic about the memories spend with my dad. I wanted a shoulder to cry on. Friends, family and all the people who knew didn't bother to ask me why I was sad and what was actually bothering me.


The 'guy' noticed me, he suddenly approached me. I only had a brief conversation with him on the internet and that too about what you will do in the future(studies). He said, "I know buddy what are you thinking!", I was a bit nervous talking to him, because we didn't talk much when we use to have a Team meeting. I wanted to throw out all the emotions and share everything.

To my shock, he knew everything about me. Obviously someone would have said about my past. He said "I know you have got family problems". I said "Yes, everybody does". He was straight on the point, "Are you thinking about your dad?". I couldn't say much  more.., I walked away.


Sometime later on the internet,
He Buzzed me,
We were teammates, started a conversation about our game strategies which was something for a change and then we became friendly in the conversation. As we had played together in the team for about 6months, and he was going away for studies which surely dissolved the team. I was pretty sad about what happened to the team, but happy for him.
Then he came to the point, he asked me that why I walked away the other time when we met?, when he asked me that question. I said to him that I was missing my dad, and I wanted him badly. He probably knew what I was thinking, he too shared with me that he too had lost his dad back when he was 9. I was sharing things with a 'NOBODY', though he wanted to give me some advice that I should be strong about my feelings. He cared and didn't feel that my feelings were stupid. I was sharing my history with him, he became from a 'NOBODY' to someone I knew from  the past decade. He was like an elder brother to me now. His presence will be missed mostly by me. I understood that some people are just there for you when there's nobody around you to help. I couldn't figure out why was I Missing this 'guy', who shared his history and gave me personal advice about how strong I have to be for my family. The responsibilities I had.
I'll miss that guy for sure, he has been an inspiration.

That's it for today, hope you people reading my blog find it interesting and thanks for your precious time.