Don't wanna lose you Love.

It's very frustrating to keep it within myself. I can't tell you that I love you. I'm too scared to lose you. Feels like holding you forever, the pain of hiding it from you and pretending to love someone else. I don't talk to you properly that doesn't mean 'I don't love you'. I just don't want to tell you that I've fallen for you. You won't know that. I like your hair, your smile, your eyes.

My Mascara girl! ^_^

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I know you have friend-zoned me already, I don't expect nothing. I just want to see you happy, stay as close to you, protect you whenever I'm around you, be with you like a friend, care for you, and be loyal to you. Damn, don't spoil the pretty face by putting on that Mascara. I love you.

Just don't let your smile fade away. Love the Mascara girl.

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Come let's TROLL together.

It's been a month or so that I haven't updated my blog yet. I was having my board exams. They were not-so-bad-not-so-good types. The vacation is fully packed with Coaching Classes having all sorts of Test Series, Extra Lectures, Doubt Solving Sessions all together being bombarded. Well FUCK THAT NOW!

Lately I have read my First Novel!
Quite shockingly for some? or maybe not!, It's like I never liked to read any books and stuff but this book was something of my type. The books.

1. She Broke Up I Didn't... I Just Kissed Someone Else - Durjoy Dutta.


2. Now That You're Rich.... Let's - Durjoy Dutta.

These books are quite Awesome. Honestly it's very interesting. I just completed both these books in 2 days each, so quick for my first novel.

Well, Today was April Fool's Day (Troll Day). To be honest I didn't Troll anyone today by myself. I was just not in the mood to do so. Something was bothering me, maybe...

I couldn't play my favourite game (Counter Strike) for more than an hour *Something unusual*. I was not in a mood to discuss. Only a mask would hide all those feelings. That eventually happened in the end. Well now I'm happy, I was just waiting for someone's reply. That I did get in the end. Happy now. :D

Happy Troll Day to all my followers, readers, stalkers, friends, whatever... you are. B)

14 years have passed...

The day has always been sad and will forever be. I lost everything, but still I have survived. Every year has thought me something new. And the bond is still as strong as before, it's difficult for me to realize the fact. The things I have shared with you will always be the memory of my past.


I know he's watching me from up there,  I'm proud of myself. And even he might be. My love for him has become more and more stronger. Even after a decade he might have been still the same.

I wish that  I get the privilege to be his son in the next generation too. May your soul R.I.P. 







- I love you Daddy. 

The Day when a 'NOBODY' cared..

I was low on self-confidence, no self belief. I was very much depressed. I don't know why suddenly I was becoming nostalgic about the memories spend with my dad. I wanted a shoulder to cry on. Friends, family and all the people who knew didn't bother to ask me why I was sad and what was actually bothering me.


The 'guy' noticed me, he suddenly approached me. I only had a brief conversation with him on the internet and that too about what you will do in the future(studies). He said, "I know buddy what are you thinking!", I was a bit nervous talking to him, because we didn't talk much when we use to have a Team meeting. I wanted to throw out all the emotions and share everything.

To my shock, he knew everything about me. Obviously someone would have said about my past. He said "I know you have got family problems". I said "Yes, everybody does". He was straight on the point, "Are you thinking about your dad?". I couldn't say much  more.., I walked away.


Sometime later on the internet,
He Buzzed me,
We were teammates, started a conversation about our game strategies which was something for a change and then we became friendly in the conversation. As we had played together in the team for about 6months, and he was going away for studies which surely dissolved the team. I was pretty sad about what happened to the team, but happy for him.
Then he came to the point, he asked me that why I walked away the other time when we met?, when he asked me that question. I said to him that I was missing my dad, and I wanted him badly. He probably knew what I was thinking, he too shared with me that he too had lost his dad back when he was 9. I was sharing things with a 'NOBODY', though he wanted to give me some advice that I should be strong about my feelings. He cared and didn't feel that my feelings were stupid. I was sharing my history with him, he became from a 'NOBODY' to someone I knew from  the past decade. He was like an elder brother to me now. His presence will be missed mostly by me. I understood that some people are just there for you when there's nobody around you to help. I couldn't figure out why was I Missing this 'guy', who shared his history and gave me personal advice about how strong I have to be for my family. The responsibilities I had.
I'll miss that guy for sure, he has been an inspiration.

That's it for today, hope you people reading my blog find it interesting and thanks for your precious time.

She had me at hello...

I am very glad, so fucking glad that I met this girl today. I couldn't talk much though. The girl I met is a friend of my friend, I had visited my friend's new apartment. The first time I looked at her, she stared at me for a second. I got the feeling that she didn't do it intentionally. But then again she stared at me for more than 10 seconds. This time I was pretty sure, she was looking at me intentionally. I was not in a good mood, after giving MATHS exams, I rushed to my friend's new apartment.

I wanted to talk to her, start a conversation, but I couldn't figure out a way. As I was hanging around with my friend, the girl approached my friend, and I started sweating. This girl was not hot she was cute, I liked her sweat shirt. And it didn't bother me when I saw her listening to some music. I guessed that she might be a music lover just like me.

Later, we had some random chats though they weren't anything in person, but it was all random stuff. Frankly I was just flattered and amused by her talks. I remember her grin, I loved it when she asked me something personal. I just wanted to spend more time, but I was shy and couldn't even ask her Name. FML, I  regret what I could have added in my random talks with her, even though the moment was just for about 15-20mins. As I stared at her, I couldn't help myself. Damn it, she had me totally at that moment. 

Well, enough of my experience with a cute, lovely, adorable girl. I'll write a blog soon.

This is R3v0lT signing off.

See ya!